Sleep/No Sleep

Do most people go to bed around the same time every night? I dread going to bed. Don't like the idea of sleeping, perhaps I am more afraid of slowing down and thinking too much. Allowing myself the time to think and process some things can be very scary to me. Occupying the mind with things to do and things to watch has been a great escape. Escaping into another world, with characters that are easy to understand, with simple objectives, where controdiction often don't appear. I like that world.
Then again, once i am asleep, i don't want to wake up to the cruel world of reality. I rather stay in my dream world where things are strange but unreal. Where at times, i can find the comfort i need and the hope that things are better than it seems.
He grants me hope that someday things will be better, where sins will not abound, there will be no more tears. Will i remember all that had happened? Will I mourn for those who won't share that joy with me? Probably.