Am i turning into an introvert or do i have a social disorder?
As I get older, I've been wondering if I am turning into an introvert. I used to hang out all the time and out every weekend. Now, my ideal way to spend my saturday is to sleep in, make myself a good brunch, watch some tv or a good movie or youtube, figure out what to make for dinner, cook dinner and watch some more tv (or read a book), and stay online and check my emails a millon times a day, and perhaps talk to a few friends back in NY. That's my idea of a good saturday. What happened to me!?!?
So I was at a wedding today. We got to the wedding ceremony half hour before it supposes to start. Those of you who knows me (like people from NY), knows that i am famous in arriving late, if anything, it's usually good that i actually arrived before the bride walks down the aisle. So, with the fact in mind, can't you imagine me being at a wedding that didn't even start yet? But the wedding ceremony was short and sweet and ONTIME. That was really good, and i am very grateful for that. Then we arrived to the reception 10 minutes early (i was carpooling with some friends). We went into reception hall, it was full of people and i wasn't sitting with the friends that i came in with. I felt lost. I just wanted to get out of the place and get some fresh air. As i was walking out, i wonder if i have a social disorder, like anti-socialist syndrome. I felt suffocated, as if i can't breath and i just needed a way out of it. it was a beautiful place, and the view was amazing. I did manage to get back into the reception half hour after it starts because i went to call my friend cuz i needed to talk to someone who knows me well. She just laughs cuz she knows that's how I am and we talked about social expectation and how you have to make small talks in these social gatherings. Frankly, i don't care to make small talks with people that I may never see again, and i really hate shallow conversation that goes "how's your day", "how you doing", "what do you do", "how you know the couple", "oh, that's nice", "very interesting" etc etc etc. So, am I just turning into an introvert or am i anti-social?
So I was at a wedding today. We got to the wedding ceremony half hour before it supposes to start. Those of you who knows me (like people from NY), knows that i am famous in arriving late, if anything, it's usually good that i actually arrived before the bride walks down the aisle. So, with the fact in mind, can't you imagine me being at a wedding that didn't even start yet? But the wedding ceremony was short and sweet and ONTIME. That was really good, and i am very grateful for that. Then we arrived to the reception 10 minutes early (i was carpooling with some friends). We went into reception hall, it was full of people and i wasn't sitting with the friends that i came in with. I felt lost. I just wanted to get out of the place and get some fresh air. As i was walking out, i wonder if i have a social disorder, like anti-socialist syndrome. I felt suffocated, as if i can't breath and i just needed a way out of it. it was a beautiful place, and the view was amazing. I did manage to get back into the reception half hour after it starts because i went to call my friend cuz i needed to talk to someone who knows me well. She just laughs cuz she knows that's how I am and we talked about social expectation and how you have to make small talks in these social gatherings. Frankly, i don't care to make small talks with people that I may never see again, and i really hate shallow conversation that goes "how's your day", "how you doing", "what do you do", "how you know the couple", "oh, that's nice", "very interesting" etc etc etc. So, am I just turning into an introvert or am i anti-social?
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