Singleness

For most of my life, i have been single. Dated a few times, none of which lasted more than a year. If i calculated all the times i dated, it probably won't add up more than 3 years. Even though i have been single for most of my life, i never felt really lonely or needy. I always feel that there are so many things to do in life, so many things to see, and so many things to experience. I always thought i want to live the seasons of my singleness fully. When it's time to settle down and have a family, i would devote my time to do that. Until then, i want to be satisfied with where i am. For the most part, i have been able to do that without much struggle. I heard other single friends that complains that need for companionship or the desire to get married. I always feel like "who cares, it's great to be by yourself and just enjoy your time with friend." Sadly to say, that feeling is starting to change. It's kinda strange to me to know that it's starting to change, and I actually long to have a companion. To have someone who truly understands me and cares for me. Of course that thought has always been nice, but i always think of all the things i have to do for the other person and that immediately lessen my desire to have someone in my life. But that feeling is changing, slowly. I wonder how long i'll feel that way.